a random ass blog about stuff i've been thinking about

work
so my boss isn't here today and i love it. the silence is VERY golden. plus...when she's not here, i get a lot more work done. you'd think i'd slack off or something...but i don't.

job search
today is the day that i also need to get on the grind to look for another job. i guess i've been procrastinating for god knows what reason. i really just need to suck it up and realize that the academic job didn't want me, i guess that goes to show you can't get everything you want.

my foot
so i think i've shattered the heel of my right foot. is that possible? whenever i put pressure on it or walk on it...it hurts like f-ing hell. but surely if i had shattered it...i wouldn't be able to walk on it right? i just feel like i've really strained it. god it hurts.

myspace
is it really worth it? myspace and facebook. it's just a waste of time. plain and simple. it's not like i use the damn thing for networking purposes. i mean all in all, i think i spend at least 24 hours a week on myspace. that's ridiculous. what the hell am i looking at? i don't forsee love in my future...and even though two of my closest friends (that met on myspace) are tying the knot in less than two weeks in Jamaica, i don't see that happening for me. don't get me wrong. i've met a lot of great guys...and i wouldn't change that...but it's time consuming and stupid...and for some reason i can't seem to let it go. is it because i don't want to grow up yet? what the hell were we doing pre-myspace? enjoying life just like we should still be doing. what have we gained from facebook and myspace coming into our lives? and why am i having such a problem with it now?

rent-a-dad
i need a rent-a-dad. so i've found a small sugar ant problem in my house. these little critters are coming in through a crack in between my wall and my floor (i think). the dr horton guy told me to get some home defense (a gallon jug thingy that sprays) and to caulk up the cracks. i'm such a girl when it comes to this shit. so i need a man...(ugh...did i just say that?)...to help me. not do it...but help me. who's coming through?

bad weather
okay...first it was myamar and the horrible cyclone that killed 28K and possibly more...not to mention that two million will probably die from starvation and disease; then there were tornadoes that hit in Oklahoma, Missouri and Georgia killing 38 people; not to mention this new earthquake to have hit in China today killing 7,600 people already. what the hell is going on with the weather? i mean our own DFW has suffered softball size hail (four different times in just two months), and crazy summer weather. it was cold when i put my trash out this morning; plus we've had all kinds of tornadoes and one tornado hit allen, tx and wiped out half of stacy road. plus we've got earthquakes in Texas...wtf? if you've noticed...in the past couple of years we haven't had any bad hurricanes (bad enough to be on our weather channels in the United States)...if the weather is already acting up this close into the summer...i can only imagine what this year's hurricane season will end up being like. don't get me wrong...i don't want bad weather...but something's wrong...be it global warming, our world going to pot or whatnot...i hope everyone remains safe this year.

being productive
so yesterday...i was extremely productive. i got all my dishes done. i cleaned up all the paperwork in my gameroom, organized it and even organized my office closet and threw out/recycled a lot of stuff. tonight i plan on tackling my closet and hopefully this week i can come home to a perfectly clean house. yay. then...hopefully i can start on doing projects around my house...like painting, painting furniture, putting together furniture, etc etc.

commitment issues
so i've been talking to this guy that i know who moved up to So Cal about two years ago. recently (about three months ago) he contacted me out of the blue and told me he was coming back to dallas for a visit. i've been talking to him for some time...and it seems after everytime i talk with him...he's more hell bent on coming back for good and dating me. that scares me. it scares me because i like someone else...but in return...why should that scare me? i've always wanted the whole relationship deal. is it because he's not the one and i know it? do i really have a problem with commitment? am i not capable of loving someone? am i not capable of knowing when love is knocking on my doorstep? i wish life wasn't so complicated.

diet
eating right is hard. granted this past weekend...i made some really great sandwiches...had a lot of fruit and drank a lot of water...but keeping up with it is f-ing hard. sarah...i have been working out...although i didn't get much done this weekend because of my foot. but by october...i hope i will have lost at least 40 pounds.